Fuzz Buzz
How shitty can one day get? Why do people make promises they can't keep? Why do people say things they clearly do not mean? Why do people take my kindness for naiviety? Why does one night out make people turn into utter shitheads? Why do people use the love word so freely but rarely mean it?
Just some burning issues around me at the moment, with friends and problems they and I are having...I can't help one friend, only she can do that, but I wish she would stop kissing other men behind her hubbys back...it puts me in an awkward position. Even when I was with someone no matter how unhappy, I have never done that stuff while with them. I am too emotional to be able to do that. My ex keeps trying to kill himself, but i got my own shit to deal with, I wish I could give up like that, but then who has my daughter? I have so much crap in my head, that i have to write, i feel compelled to write, and I haven;t met a man yet who can cope with my silent moods. I need a man who likes reading, and never questions why I feel that way, but helps resolve it. I need a man stronger than me. Well folks this is not going to happen, so I don't search I see what happens. This is also not good..but can't be bothered to type out why. So I'm focusing in my accounts career and my kid...yet these things with men and love keep coming into my life, no matter how much i brush them off.
On a lighter note I lost more weight because I have lost my appetite, and I got drunk on 2 cocktails last night, 2?? I have turned lightweight....I used to be able to drink 13 shot of jd before i wanted to keel over...now its 2 bloody cocktails...i am very ashamed lol I rarely drink now, I dont like how it makes me feel...but i sobered up at 1 am. Could have kissed 6 guys, but I can only like one person at a time...its all complicated...but having a corset on and nice eyes helps i suppose.
Berry fact # 3 or 4..i forgot lol I can't buy alcohol or get served drinks in a bar without my I.D
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